Because im still loving you like last time. You still have my heart.

After clearing everything now, i hope you'll takecare of yourself well.

Remember, im still here for you. My feelings never fade. Dont doubt my feelings.

Although this is not what i want, but i really felt so much better seeing you with lesser stress i guess?

Study well ok. What i wanna tell you supposed that i tell you everything le ba.

I wanna specially thank Xuange, Junwei, Xueli & Vanessa for realing trying to cheer up just now.

Im feeling better alr. :)

My dear, please be sure that my heart is still with you. It will never be easy to give you up. I love you like last time, never change at all. Perhaps we had failed this big test given to us.

Alright la, dont talk so much about those things anymore~ I got great friends around me, but i will never forget about you.

My birthday will be coming in 9more days!!!! That is like so fast la. I will be older by 1year real soon. In case you readers wanna get me something and dk what to get, shall give you some points that might help you'll in getting the present? ^^

Just one thing, i really like blue things! Get me something blue and i will love you with my whole life ^^. And i love stitch too! But dont get me a stitch soft toy because i would only love to hug my one and only stitch now. :D

Ok, i think im abit too bhb. Byebye la.

I no longer have the courage to find friends.
Nobody's really here for me.
I looked @ my phone for days and hours.
None of the smses are yours.
He no longer needs me,
Soon i will face the truth.
Crying to myself seems terrible,
But it made me feels better.
Everything's over. I no longer have him.
I need someone who understands me to talk with me.
Brother, can i lend ur shoulder? :(
Nobody knows how i really feel, only myself.
I dont have the courage to face myself anymore.
Yes, i have great friends who care for me,
I have great bandmates who can really make me laugh.
I appreciated you'll alot.
I just wanted to say how i feel here.
I dont want to hide my feelings.
I dont want life to be miserable.
I dont want a terrible life.
Who's really there for me?
Actions speak louder than words.
FML.
&, i seriously miss you. Is ignoring me really the best choice of yours?

My dear boy, i miss you much.

I feel so cold today because of the weather. But its so nice to sleep in. Yesterday was a fun day afterall althought something happened. Was able to smile and laugh throughout because i have my great 5sisters cheering me up :). Not forgetting J's boyf. Haha.

Practically, met up with them @ 2plus and took train to Harbourfront and then walked to Vivo. Was deciding what to eat, settled on BK's. Walking.... Then something happened. Thanks much my dears. Went to toilet and back to BK. Saw ChongYong smexye :D. Sat there and ate for like hours??? Can hatch egg liao. Was super full aft the meal. Went to open space and celebrated Ls3's belated birthday. 6 started the awesome cream smashing and all started to chase each other. Like mad woman i can say, x). So angry! Got smashed till the worst when im not the birthday girl @ all!!!! 2,5&6 gangbang me, :(. But was really fun. Went for the toilet to clean up and after washing still can smell the mango cake taste!!! Plus face was still abit oily, EEEEEE. Took lots of pictures, heyheyx. After that 3&5 went off with their dearest, rest of us went to shop for accessories and stuffs while waiting for YJ. Bought 2 pairs of earstuds :D. After that YJ came and went BK again to accompany 1&YJ for their dinner. Didn't eat dinner as still very full, bought ice milo and shared with 6~

Afterwards, went to CottonOn and saw Ed&Be. Haha Janice kept repeating, " the world is big, singapore is small. Vivo is smaller. " Makes much sense. Bought a long sleeve with Tian :D Then bade goodbye with 1 and YJ. Went to sit @ the stairs. Listened to songs, singing along. Our own small concert. Haha. Then walked to mrt station and took train back. Thanks Tian for being my "couple" for yesterday! Love you. Hsh. Smsed dearest till buay tahan & went to sleep. hehe.

Later meeting Band10 for late lunch early dinner @ Jp before heading to Esplanade for some band concert. :) Missing my dearest boy, he's late for work :/. Will be waiting! :)
Last but not least,
HAPPY 22MONTHS SUNSHINE KOH! ( Love you muchy! )
&
HAPPY 2MONTHS ELDER BRO! ( Think you forgot again. )
Toodle!

Dont let me learn what is let go.

Came to blog because im stuck @ home doing nothing.

Past 2 days have been going out with Vanessa, life's fruitful spending time with her.

Be honoured to read this ok! Haha.

Thursday met her @ JurongPoint and went Popular>CottonOn>Rubi>AnnaNucci>KFC for lunch. Bought slippers and heels with her! After eating, went YiWen's house cause we got nothing better to do. Went her house to play, crap and cook. :D 6plus bused back to JurongPoint and took mrt home. Hsh after that.

Ytd met BY for rebonding~ Omg, my hair get even longer aft that. Gonna cut hair with mum :) After that, bus to JurongPoint and trained to BuonaVista and went Vk's house. Played, then Queenstown to buy shoebag. Went in every shop and compared the prices. Cause i said want buy the cheapest to save money. Then settled on a Adidas $15.90's. Haha. After that went back to her house downstairs to buy food for dinner! Something happened in between, so disgusted pls! Then went back to her house and ate. After that played wii and bade goodbye to her. Trained back, Hsh.

Today never go out, so guai ley :/ Boyfriend went Zoo! Hahaha. Now he's sleeping like a pig, Joking! ^^. Miss him much. Im happy for myself because i did maths hmwk(:/) and a part of poa worksheet. Gave up on Poa halfway cause i dont know how to do. Haha. Still left alot of homework, sigh :(.

K bye!

Dont leave me alone, please.

I will do my best.

I will not give up easily.

I will perservere on.

I will continue to do my best.
Because you had not left my life even a milisecond.

I miss those past happy times.

I miss you, alot alot.

Im feeling better :)

No worries.

Once again, happy 15th birthday VanessaKoh.
Band10 promised each other to post.
Yet, i felt very very shag.
You always treat our r/s so simple.
You said that ytd's thing is too disappointing.
Had you known how hurt i felt once i see your reply?
You dk, because i hide everything to myself.
Im not trying to push blame to you saying you dont understand me, but i hope you can see how much effort i had put in.
And in a few smses, i totally broke down.
Maybe you dk the feeling, because im still a growing up woman afterall.
What i can do now is just stop smsing you. Maybe thats the best you wanted.
My stomach is still aching. Should stuff myself with panadol soon.
Hope tmr can go to school normally and act as nothing happened. Idw people to come and ask me anymore. Just let me take the pain all by myself ba :).
Will post about band10's thing once i think im feeling better.
During one time, you told me you'd never let other boys get me. Next moment, you broke me down into pieces. Great.